Sunday At Home

Today has been a nice day for me. I went to my Aunts house to see my cousin & her two kids. They live 2-3 hours away, so when they come to town I only have a 5 minute drive. I gave them their belated Christmas money... at their ages, money rules, not toys.

It was really nice to see them.

My other Aunt is in the intensive care unit in her town. My mom has been talking to my Uncle keeping up on her status. She is OK. She has heart issues, and her pacemaker from what I gather did something - it knocked her to her knees ... and he called 911 to come. We are praying for them. There is no need for us to go to them right now. Nothing we can do but pray.

With all that is going on with the health of my Mother and her remaining siblings ... it lead me to begin the next paragraph.

I am thinking a lot today about what to do with my life. It is time to move forward. I have so many things that interest me, but I don't know what I want to do as a career / job for the remainder of my days.
The people closest to me are really no help when I talk to them about it. (Those people are my Mother & Husband) One is a Libra, the other a Scorpio... I am a Cancer. They tell me what they think I should do, but if I bring up my ideas for my life, there are always the "you don't wanna do that", "when are you going to have time to have kids, raise a family?" , comments.

So, I am trying to liberate myself with this blog series. I am not making any choices to hurt them. I am not making bad choices. I am going to start making choices that make me happy. I am gonna make a list of the things I like, love, enjoy doing... and try to figure out how to go about making a living doing it.

• Health Care: I've been a CNA, MA, Ultrasound Tech Assistant, Unit Clerk, Receptionist, Scheduler for Surgery... these are the ones I enjoyed -life happened and now I am unemployed.
• Crafts: Scrap booking, Card making, Calendar making, Gift wrapping sets W/matching cards.
• Photography

I like helping people, I have thought about going back to school to be anyone of the following:

• Counselor
• Psychiatrist
• RN, Nurse Practitioner
• Message therapist - Aroma therapy... etc...

I also would like to start a small business, if I cant do the other stuff. I am really ready to figure myself out. I wish I could afford to go away for a week, without my spouse & mother... and just be alone with myself and my thoughts. How does a person go about making this kind of life molding - life changing decision?

I am going to enjoy coming back to this later to see what I did finally decide to do. I am going to go for now, I will back later to make my "to do list" for Tomorrow - Monday January 25th 2010... we will have 11 months to Christmas...hmph.